No words could express my grief,tonight, at this moment.

Deeply.

I understand it clearly that, there is no use to keep such a "depression" condition like this. But the point is, something not useful doesn''t means something not "exist".

It seems that, depression will run across the whole of one''s life, and which is reality, meanwhile happyness is short and unreal. Who the hell knows. The more I think, the more depressive I will be.

When the sunset comes, when all my colleages go for dinner, I lonely go back to office, start "my work", to wait for "something happen". Soon, the whole darkness arrives, no body could see my face clearly, I begin to call the driver and photographer, my day begins at such a night, such a "warm light, lonely shadow" night......

Oh, jesus, I will never forget such a life style I choose myself, when I was 26 years old.

A young lady walking in the dark at night, that''s another kind of beautiful ......Insist there, Imangine the light-house of you, how to lead you to the top.